by Michelle
(Las Cruces, NM USA)
My mommy and my baby boy!
It was 2006 and I was a wild one. Traveling from Las Vegas to San Diego to New Orleans and I was ALWAYS high. I never thought about anybody else but myself and my drug. I made my precious mother worry about me which did not help her illness!
I was living in New Orleans when 2007 came around and I had stopped using. I had not stopped being selfish though! But one night as my friend was driving along the small highway in St. Bernard Parish, I noticed the sunset and how beautiful it was. I noticed the green grass that covered the land and it continued as far as my eye could see. I noticed the water that surrounded us and the bridges that connected one city to the next. I felt overwhelmed and I did not know why.
A day later I felt an urgency to go back home to see my precious mother who was very ill and I did. I made it back although I did not make it all the way to Las Cruces. I had some warrants for my arrest so I decided to stay in El Paso and work at the club. I would visit my mother, but my visits were short because of the way the police would always stop by looking for me.
I really had not changed. I was back but I was back to my old ways and I had found out that I was pregnant. I went crazy and I made an appointment to not have it! I was not ready for responsibility nor was I ready to quit my drugs! The appointment was for the next morning and with that I went to work at the club. I would never see the next morning
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